how i used to walk the streets lit up like a god in duneworld
when you are younger dreams seem to possess you more this is an illusion dreams are forever making you
Halfway houses have occupied a bit of my time recently, scary but can offer alternatives that you might not see if you allow them to ....words learnt. There are many sorts of Halfway House perhaps you are in one now perhaps we are always there.
I will now tell you a true story it has one purpose to stop you smoking. It might be the most important part of my website as it might save your life at a later point especially if you are young and think yourself somehow immune to the way the body is engineered, it has nothing to do with liking smoking or what you smoke the facts remain the same
I notice now the logo bears a remarkable resemblance to a spiral CT scanner a machine that helped save my life. Thanks to all those fine nurses and doctors on Manly North Shore.I had PE clots on the lungs.The fine efforts of IC unit thru those dark nights at least I know what blood looks like free flowing from your wrist when an artery line comes loose. Strangely like someone had turned on the warm tap.I always think of that now as the human robot repairyard, flashing lights,beeps. Strangely I never felt pain. Taught these guys and girls work miracles, they may be all flow charts and stats. But your stat improves the next ones chance.I had to play strange mental games visual the clearing of sandstone tunnels I saw as the vessels in my lungs. While the student docs and this was a teaching hospital injected the clot eating bacteria. With Kev having the whole of Hillsong pray.I must say I dont know how they do it the sight of a cut knuckle bone gives me the shivers, I only tell this story my stat to you if you happen to be a smoker doesnt matter what you smoke cigarettes or pot. Both have resin that breaks the barrier into the blood of the lung.That resin will build up over the years and maybe form a blockage.Mine was made more probable by the fact my heart beats irregularly the twists and eddies caused make it worse. Will you beat the odds, mine statistically was 1 out of 4 make it out alive. Lucky Phil. You smoke at some point this will be your Halfway House. Every person I have tried for days to stop smoking and for me when I was younger I used to smoke a joint and a half at weekends I would never have listened, eat it never smoke it. I havent smoked since 1999 when this occured it put the total fear of god into me. I wouuld not even in my deepest day smoke again. Pulmonary Embollism, it is called in french La Petite Morte
You cannot breathe, you cannot absorpb enough oxygen to stand up, in doing so you cold black out or white heat out Your sight goes to full white full of intense shining stars. I thought I had a really bad case of the flu, as it starts in that way. What you cannot see is your blue face if you are alone or know about the blue fingernails you have. You are on 25% of your normal oxygen for 2 weeks, causing tissue and organ damage, Your heart swells up to by a half trying to force blood thru. Still smoking. You recover in the respiratory unit to see a guy with a tube going into his lungs draining into a jar, the sound and the stench, Learn the stats smokers. The other 3 didnt make it there was no Happy Feet, no journeys round Australia.
Though at Manly Teaching Hospital the other 3 made it. They would have tried everything. They cheered when I left ICU i was there miracle.This was my greatest Halfway House, I stand I walk I breathe.
DO NOT SMOKE NUFF SAID, learn from others experience.
Painted Meeting House Lane Council Estate PecKham, London.